Yes it is, and...you aren't even, really eschewing now, are you? And I care. Even if it is just one, that's one. How many do you need? Yes, it will always be you vs the world. That is how it usually is for most creative types. But you've known that for a while, haven't you?
I'm so sorry about your father. I'm sorry about your friend as well but that...that's just life.
Yes, I always thought you looked pretty good. Never saw you as the beatnik type you're describing since you only show the cutsie cutout with the pink lips, but that's cool. No, and you never seemed too self-absorbed, especially when you write about working so hard with others in mind. Does that sound self-absorbed to you? Snob? Eh... Maybe. In this world? Snob is often okay.
Off you go now. Get to work. Let me know if you need a hand. You can't see my hand, I know, but it's here, there, here, whatever. The invisible hand. You're in grad school, right? You've heard of that?